Things have been very hard lately. Its been a little over two months since I saw my boyfriend last and its really starting to wear down on me. We wanted to see each other with in the next week or so but things are looking like that might not happen. Two months apart was hard enough I can't imagine three months or more. I really really miss him and can't stand to be away from him. And just like my title says I just feel Empty cause he isnt here, I can't see him that much. I know it is hard on him too. I also know they say that absence makes the heart grow fonder but there is a limit to it and to me the limit it reached. I'm not saying that I want to break up with him or that I want to be apart from him. I never want that to happen. It's just getting harder to deal with it. This is one of the hardest things to deal with, to be away from the one you love. I don't know how other people can do it. The ones that have their loved one over seas or in different parts of the world or couples like us that just have distance between them. Is it just me that takes it so hard. Is it just me that can't stand being away so long. To have all these feelings, to sit here and think and wish you were here to feel your touch to know I'm safe, to be in the best place in the world. I'm sure I'm not but at times it just feels like it. I don't know if it just feels that way cause my mind works differently and I know that... I wish I knew and I really wish that we were just together. I really can't wait till he is done with school (college) and that we can see each other more. I also know that the future can be a wonderful thing and that things could be lots better by than, but we have to live our lives till than and it feels like its going to be a very long journey. I just want him by me and for me to be by his side, and to feel whole again. To not feel so Empty. If anyone else feels this way let me know so I know I'm not alone and if you have any advice I would love to hear it cause I will take whatever I can right now. If we end up seeing each other soon I will let you all know. I really hope that is soon (fingers crossed)
Thank you with all my heart,
Kristina
