Has anyone else noticed how people are changing now a days. They know what is wrong and they know what is right yet they don't follow what they believe in. Its like they lost their mind, like they just don't care about the choices they make. They ask for advice and yet when you give it to them they just let it out the other ear like they just want the satisfaction that some one is paying attention to them that someone is wasting their time and breath on them. I'm sure there are a lot of people that you know of that is like this and I'm sure there are a lot of you that are the ones that are sitting there talking till there blue in the face to save those people and trying to help them. I'm the type of person than needs to help people, to listen till they run of steam or until they feel better and I don't care how long it takes till you feel better. Yet there are some people that I just cant take anymore. I've told them so many things yet it seems like not a single thing is going through. They are still doing what they want and when it goes bad they sit there and cry and complain and ask why. I still want to help them but yet when do I say enough and just let them learn on their own? The reason I ask is cause there is a friend that I have that just doesn't seem to get it, it doesn't seem to sink in that what is going on in their life and see how much it is changing them and making them...well not them. They know things are wrong and they know the things that are happening to them are wrong yet its like they embrace it and do what they can to make it more and increase and do whatever they can to keep it happening no matter what they need to go through or what they are putting others through to do it. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm at a loss, I don't know what to think or say anymore. Which is really odd cause I am so not used to it being this way. If you can help or give some kind of input that would be wonderful!
That's pretty much all I had this time but I also wanted to say Thank You to all of those that are reading this, thank you for your support! I hope my page is looking a little better and I'm trying to post more so I'm hoping to have way more post and rants and letting you know what is happening around me more. Thank you once again!!
With all my heart,
Kristina
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Am I The Only One?
Times are proving to be very difficult right now. There are so many things that are going wrong so many things that are moving to fast things that are not going the way that I ever wanted it to go. I guess I will start from the biggest thing, of course its about a guy. I've liked this guy for months and months on end lets say his name is...Sean. He is the perfect guy for me, he has a little girl that is the cutest kid ever, he is a nice and caring guy even though he might not show it all the time but he really is. Well me and him started to get things going and things were going good. He had to move back to his home town for a month which was quite a ways a way but we talked pretty much every night for hours on end and we were getting along really well. When he got back it was wonderful for a quite a while but then things started to slip and one day it just kind of ended. He wouldn't talk to me much and we kinda of just stopped talking all together. Than things started to pick up again and I thought things were going back to normal and this lasted for a few weeks but than it all ended again. He started to talk about other girls around me and tell me about some that he was talking to. He knows that I really like him. We never really dated so I can't say he was cheating on me but yet it kind of felt like it cause well we were kind of close. Than he stopped talking again and ended up getting a different cell so his cell number changed and never told me about it even though I got it through a friend but he doesn't know that for all I know. Than one day I saw and found out he had girlfriend. That night was the first time I cried myself to sleep in a long long time. Since he knows how much I like him and how I fully feel about him, and we have known each other for 6 to 7 months at this time yet he did this. One of my best friends keeps telling me that he is just no good and that he is ass but yet I still have major feelings for him. I still have times where he is all I can think about, times were I still cry myself to sleep cause of him, times where I just sit there while words that were said or memories run through my mind. I don't think I will ever get over him no matter how much he hurts me. Ya at times I do see that I am stupid for still likeing him so much but yet every time I see him which isn't much but every time I do my heart still skips a beat and I lose my ability to breath for a bit. It never seems to fail. So when ever I see him I don't say any thing even though there is so many things that I want to yell out so many things I want to get out there. I don't know if doing that is helping any or just making things worse but the more I do it the more it seems to hurt than help. I don't know what to do any more, or what to think. I don't know if I should say something to him or just go up to him and bitch him out yet I know if I do I will end up crying in front of him which I don't know if I want to do that cause I'm not big into crying in public. I don't know what to do, if you have any advise for me it would be greatly appreciated!!
There is more that I want to talk about but I just cant anymore cause that was harder to write and say than I thought it would be. So I will have to finish it at a different time. Sorry if you were looking forward to it.
Thank you for all your help and support if you comment, and Thank you even if you read this cause you are probley the first person to. Thank you for listening and reading all my babbling and ranting.
With all my heart,
Kristina
There is more that I want to talk about but I just cant anymore cause that was harder to write and say than I thought it would be. So I will have to finish it at a different time. Sorry if you were looking forward to it.
Thank you for all your help and support if you comment, and Thank you even if you read this cause you are probley the first person to. Thank you for listening and reading all my babbling and ranting.
With all my heart,
Kristina
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
What else is new.
As I sit here trying to figure out what to say...well to be honest I am drawing a blank but I need to write I need to get some words out. I need... What do I need? That is the biggest question I have been asking myself lately. What do I really need in my life? What do I need to be happy to be content to be...okay? I have my friends whenever they are around even though I don't have an outstanding number of them but enough, yet something is missing. I don't know if its cause I love to help my friends and the people I care about and I love to listen to there problems and their rants and raves but non of that is going on, or is it cause they all seem to be better off than me for the time being. I'm not saying I'm better than them or that they don't measure up to me, I'm just saying that they all see so happy they all seem like things are going there way, like they have a reason for doing what they are doing. I on the other hand am lacking in these areas. I am not the happiest (I have been happier), not a lot of things are going my way and I understand that its life but to have things go the way you expect it to go now and than would be quite nice, and I don't seem to feel that there is a reason for me to be at this very spot at this very moment writing this or thinking what I am or even being where I am. It could be just my own crazy thoughts but... I guess what I an saying is that I need a life! I need to go out there and do more things but it isn't as easy as it sounds. Living in a small town doesn't help much, (neither does the gas prices) but yet I have a very very slight feeling things will pick up and get better, I just hope I don't have to wait to long.
Another thing I want to talk about is Paul (not his real name). I was online oh...about a week ago applying for jobs when this guy pops up on my messenger and starts to talking to me and I know we talked for a very brief period of time about a year ago so I wasn't freaked or anything. We talked for about 3 hours the first night and we mad plans to talk the next night which we did. But after the 3rd night he just stopped. To my knowledge he hasn't been online and of course he doesn't have a cell at this point of time. We haven't talked for 4 days now. I thought we were hitting it off some but am I wrong??? What do you guys think I should do? Wait till he comes back and see what he says to the reason of why he wasn't on and why it was so long or do I say screw it and just move on even though he said "I will message you later, I promise"... do I keep thinking he will keep it or do I just move on and have the chance of feeling majorly stupid when e does go back on? Let me know your opinions and or thoughts.
Well that's all that I have for today. I hope I'm getting a wee bit better lol. Thank you for reading this and putting up with me!
With all my heart,
Kristina
Another thing I want to talk about is Paul (not his real name). I was online oh...about a week ago applying for jobs when this guy pops up on my messenger and starts to talking to me and I know we talked for a very brief period of time about a year ago so I wasn't freaked or anything. We talked for about 3 hours the first night and we mad plans to talk the next night which we did. But after the 3rd night he just stopped. To my knowledge he hasn't been online and of course he doesn't have a cell at this point of time. We haven't talked for 4 days now. I thought we were hitting it off some but am I wrong??? What do you guys think I should do? Wait till he comes back and see what he says to the reason of why he wasn't on and why it was so long or do I say screw it and just move on even though he said "I will message you later, I promise"... do I keep thinking he will keep it or do I just move on and have the chance of feeling majorly stupid when e does go back on? Let me know your opinions and or thoughts.
Well that's all that I have for today. I hope I'm getting a wee bit better lol. Thank you for reading this and putting up with me!
With all my heart,
Kristina
Monday, April 18, 2011
The Beginning
Hi I'm Kristina. No one will prob read this but I needed a place were I wanted to vent or write out my frustrations or just the normal every day things that go on around me. A place were I write how I see the world, the people, everything around me. I will not say true names of the people that I write about nor will I say the true places were some things might happen, but if anyone is reading this you will kind of know who I am talking about and the more I write or blog the more you will know too. I also might have poems that I write on here to but it mostly depends on how my day went or what I'm feeling. So here I go.....
I am a 21 year old that has a crappy job that still lives at home cause of this crappy job, but yet I some how still end up getting by. How I have no clue. A lot of older people think that just because a person is young that means they don't know a thing about life or paying bills or buying food or all the important things, which was one thing I never got. I have bills that I have to pay, ya they might not be a mortgage or a house payments or whatnot but I still have all of my checks going to at least 4 major things and just because I'm young that doesn't mean I don't know how the world runs or how to do certain things. In my crappy job I am one of the main persons that run the service desk (I work in retail) I also watch over up to 9 people and make sure they are doing there job but yet there are a lot of people that don't respect me. I almost never do anything wrong I am a very fun out going person that likes to make work fun but yet still get the job done on time and done correctly. Yet for some reason there are people that I work with that just don't care that I am ahead of them, they think that just cause they are older than me means they don't need to listen. I guess I don't see how a person can do that. When a person that is younger than me tells me to do something for them I do it without a complaint cause well it's my job. I guess the point I'm trying to make is that older people need to give some of us 'youngins' a chance and to not be so harsh on us and have a little faith in us cause not all of us are as easy off as you might think.
I'm sorry if that part was boring or was not what you thought this was going to be. I promise that I won't have stuff like that very often. Things that I will have on here I hope will be a little more entertaining or at least not quite so boring and blah blah ish...
There is one more thing I would like to add to today's post:
If you have a best friend out there that you care lots and lots for and he/she asks for your advise and each time you give it to them and you tell them what you know is best for them yet they turn around and do the complete opposite and get mad at you cause you don't agree to what they are doing let me know so that I know I am not the only one that's out there. I won't go into much detail about it this time but I will talk about it more next time when things either...get more heated or worse. At this point I don't know how things will go. Or if you have any advise once I start to tell more about it let me know to cause it is much needed.
I hope I didn't bore you with my rambling. I promise things will get better once I get the hang of this so don't give up on me! lol Thank you very much for reading this and if you leave a comment Thanks! for that too!
With all my heart,
Kristina
I am a 21 year old that has a crappy job that still lives at home cause of this crappy job, but yet I some how still end up getting by. How I have no clue. A lot of older people think that just because a person is young that means they don't know a thing about life or paying bills or buying food or all the important things, which was one thing I never got. I have bills that I have to pay, ya they might not be a mortgage or a house payments or whatnot but I still have all of my checks going to at least 4 major things and just because I'm young that doesn't mean I don't know how the world runs or how to do certain things. In my crappy job I am one of the main persons that run the service desk (I work in retail) I also watch over up to 9 people and make sure they are doing there job but yet there are a lot of people that don't respect me. I almost never do anything wrong I am a very fun out going person that likes to make work fun but yet still get the job done on time and done correctly. Yet for some reason there are people that I work with that just don't care that I am ahead of them, they think that just cause they are older than me means they don't need to listen. I guess I don't see how a person can do that. When a person that is younger than me tells me to do something for them I do it without a complaint cause well it's my job. I guess the point I'm trying to make is that older people need to give some of us 'youngins' a chance and to not be so harsh on us and have a little faith in us cause not all of us are as easy off as you might think.
I'm sorry if that part was boring or was not what you thought this was going to be. I promise that I won't have stuff like that very often. Things that I will have on here I hope will be a little more entertaining or at least not quite so boring and blah blah ish...
There is one more thing I would like to add to today's post:
If you have a best friend out there that you care lots and lots for and he/she asks for your advise and each time you give it to them and you tell them what you know is best for them yet they turn around and do the complete opposite and get mad at you cause you don't agree to what they are doing let me know so that I know I am not the only one that's out there. I won't go into much detail about it this time but I will talk about it more next time when things either...get more heated or worse. At this point I don't know how things will go. Or if you have any advise once I start to tell more about it let me know to cause it is much needed.
I hope I didn't bore you with my rambling. I promise things will get better once I get the hang of this so don't give up on me! lol Thank you very much for reading this and if you leave a comment Thanks! for that too!
With all my heart,
Kristina
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